In need of a voice

I do not know where to start...my life is in such a mess right now that I really do not ever know how to explain. I go to school full-time for Homeland Security and Terrorism and work full-time as an elderly caregiver, soany free time that I may have is dedicated to homework or time with my fiance.

I completly consumed by this life and it is my last semester before I leave to Washington D.C. for my intership-they actually want me to apply towards the White House..all of this just seems like some sort of dream. I would not call my life itself a dream-because its definatly not-but I am so close to achieveing this goal I have worked towards for years.

So because of all this and my reports AND my senior project I do not have a true single friend. Now honestly this does not bother me, but I began to realize that I am inside my own head too much. So the most healthy thing I could think of was to get all these thoughts out before I went crazy.

It all started with my memior but I am still young so really I couldn't write enough to publish and kinda of lost my steam with it. What I really what and need is some back-and-forth, then realized I could find that with a blog. I want to share everything that is in my head and about me. I have not found anybody like me around here which in turn makes friends nearly impossible.

I really just want to share my thoughts and feelings and little ideas an jut plain randomness with somebody of than may fiance-who I feel, judge or examines everything that I say.

I just want to be heard and share and communicate. I don't know...